There's a couple of ideas about what the writer/poet's role in the world is. Is that role as a conduit or a more assertive force? In college, I'd spend hours trying to sense in my gut which theory I thought to be true. But I was even more a bull in a china shop then, and so I used to really think I was the assertive voice. That was when I was convinced that my personal plot line was really important. But as the years have gone by, more and more, I just want to catch what's out there and open myself to let it flow through me and onto a page.
I was just dying for something to happen to me. And if it didn't, then I'd force it, often with disastrous results. But now, I just want to be in the room when something happens. I just want to have my eyes open when something happens around me. What happens close enough for me to see, feel through, write down, share with. Maybe that's just an expanded definition of what happens to a person. If you were a part of it, didn't it happen to you?
I do know that you don't learn anything if you're not in the room. So it means a lot to me to participate in the lives and families (Which I've talked about before) of others. I'm a professional wedding attendee, surrogate aunt, babysitter, book publicist. But I'm not kidding when I say that I feel the victories of my friends as my own. I look at Eden and Charlie and Tigerlily and imagine little Mr. Beakley and just love them. It just puts my heart in my throat. It really does.
Whatever the difference is, it all began
the day we woke up face-to-face like lovers
and his four-day-old smile dawned on him again,
possessed him, till it would not fall or waver;
and I pitched back not my old hard-pressed grin
but his own smile, or one I'd rediscovered.
Dear son, I was mezzo del cammin
and the true path was as lost to me as ever
when you cut in front and lit it as you ran.
See how the true gift never leaves the giver:
returned and redelivered, it rolled on
until the smile poured through us like a river.
How fine, I thought, this waking amongst men!
I kissed your mouth and pledged myself forever.
WAKING WITH RUSSELL by DON PATERSON (about his son)
I just sent the Don Paterson poem to my best friend who, coincidentally, will have a four-day-old son as of tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteThe poem is absolutely beautiful, as is this baby.
Thank you, Ryann!
Thanks, Lauren!! xoxoxooxox
ReplyDeleteMs. Ryan
ReplyDeleteJust happen to find my way here via Em's post on FB. So impressed. Love what you are doing. Blessings, Auntie Deena