:(

For the first time since all this drama started happening in the lives of my friends, I'm really allowing it to affect me. It's my last full day in Vegas-- a trip I planned to celebrate the wedding of one friend and support another for the birth of her first child (during a very difficult time.)

Well, I haven't mentioned it, but the groom called off the wedding (that was to have been this past Saturday evening) last Tuesday and it looks as though I will leave Vegas tomorrow still having not met Tigerlily. I'm feeling so... useless. Or thwarted. The same kind of powerless frustration to affect ANY kind of positive change on a situation I've felt a majority of my life.

I didn't even see my dad on this trip.

And the idea that this wedding and baby trip would end with no wedding and no baby just makes me want to cry.